sian
Hmm...dunno why leh. Can't sleep properly. Keep waking up in the middle of night 4 times in a row. Haiz..is like ok, now I'm prepared to face the whole with a same old brand new me. But is like I still dun have the spirit to do anything.... is like very thing is so sianz to me. Like no point to do them and like I dun feel like doing things lo. Hahax..like my heart have a hole that needs to be filled in...
Today after I post the above post, she came online and I finally tok to her after waiting for 29 days, creepy horz, today is 06-06-06, satan's birthday. She told me all her thoughts and her feels and I also tell her everything.And we sort of clear out thought she still consistantly reject my offer of hanging out....sadz though. I found out that she is also a bit same like me, keep think of wad I sae on the faithful day ..8 May. The diff btw us is that I think she can control her thoughts and emotion and not let it affected her studies, and this is wad I didn't manage to do... On these days, I do not put in my best in all assignments given to me, I even let this thoughts affect me that I delibrately fail my Digital electronics test cause my mind is not wif me. I was so depress that I crush my test paper and throw it into the dustbin. I dun even have the heart to do souldering in class..I was completely eaten up ny my thoughts and depression...haiz..
I'm so pathetic horz....
IWANTEDYOU @[9:35 PM]
