Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Hmm...today is my Digital Electronics Mid Semester Test, think I did quite ok, eventhough I onli study for 30min in Boonlay MRT station. Hahax, I'm like a pig liao.. I set my alarm clock to ring at 7.00am, 7.30am, 8.00am, 8.30am and 9.00am, I still cannot wake up, hahax..is like too tired lo, so tired lo. Hahax, after 9.00am I set my alarm clock to snooze mode, ring every 10min, and STILL..cannot wake up. Hahax...I haven study test lo, but soo tired that I dun bother to wake up until 12pm, the time limit, cannot let Vance and Faz wait liao. In the end I reach the Boonlay MRT station at 12.23pm, so I sit down and study a bit lo, I manage to cover 2 and a half chapter then Faz come, later on we saw Vance and his parents. His mum is like SOOO fierce lo, her voice super loud. Then Vance father like very scare, hahax...and he keep looking at me and giving me strange look..hahax!! Later me and Faz meet Vance on the platform and we took the MRT, at Jurong East MRT station, we saw Ern San, Haryanti and Yu Fang aka sotong. I look like an idiot lo, waving to san and he never see until the door open, hahax!! Later on we reach dover and meet up wif Zhihao and the rest, later when walking into the sku then saw Glen and Viknesh.
We move on and reach T812, that place is crammed wif ppl and so hot, finally I get in and have the test which turn out pretty well..thnx to TPL for lighting up my mood =) Next, me, faz, san and vance went to JE, but vance have to meet up her GF so onli left me, faz and san. We go JE have lunch which I spot a fren which I dunno her but she recongise me cause she's CTSS. Later on we went to play pool..
After this, we went home..
IWANTEDYOU @[8:33 PM]
Friday, June 23, 2006
Wahh..I dunno why. Thesedays I felt so STRESS. And like having difficulties to breath. What's going on with me man...so stress, so much pressure... Its the first time I'm feeling so much pressure, greater than the ones I'm having when taking O levels..Haiz... I miss old buddys man and of course...qing. I found out that I forgot alot of my frens in primary school but they still remeber me hahax. I got no impression of them cause different classes...Then I didn't realise that the CWSS gal in my CDAC class in sec4 is Xiao Ting, my pri fren. Hahax,how irony, onli know her as my CDAC unknown fren(cause I forgot her name until Xiao Xian told me) Hahax!!
When I saw lots of my frens in the channel 8 show 'It's show time', I'm like quite sad cause all my best buddies are in JJC...sadz,haiz...who ask me to fail my humanities so sadly....haiz..no use regreting now..
IWANTEDYOU @[11:18 PM]
Thursday, June 15, 2006
Wah...this whole week is so sian lo. Wednesday at first looking forward to going sentosa to meet some old and new frens but Vance sae everyone not sure not sure so cancelled liao, San even go cut hair on tuesday juz for going to sentosa..hahax, in the end so sian lo. On thursday, I also VERY looking forward to going town for my MI Orion5 gathering...but then is so full of disappointment for me and cyn cause the gathering is cancelled because of everybody overslept and waiting for others to sms the time of gathering..haiz, sorry to disappoint you Cynthia buddy..
IWANTEDYOU @[9:18 PM]
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
so sian....today whole day at home in my room, using my laptop to watch Naruto movie 1 and 2 from youtube..so sian, until 5 pm then got wireless connection...so sian, nothing to do today... so sian, tmr didn't go sentosa liao...so sian. This year's birthday is soooo sian!! kaes la, lets see, many thanks to Ivy nu er, Winnie Er Jie, Shu Hui, Zhao Perng, Jia Hao, Sharon, Raudah, Yu Fang, Ern San, Pei Ru, Charlene, Yu Xian, Raewyn, Louisa, Fazli, Zhen Guang, Vance, Gavin, Edwin, Jonathan, Cynthia, Syahirah, Wei Kiong, Jing Hui, Bryan, Viknesh and Ivan Ah Kor for your Birthday wishes!!
IWANTEDYOU @[9:38 PM]
The most 'heated' day of my life... The worst Birthday I've had!!
The stupid E-Learning DE test is making me so angry!! GRRRR....
Anyway....I felt so strange, ppl wishing me happy birthday on 11 june and 12 june instead of today....strange horz..hahax!! I'll update more later..
IWANTEDYOU @[1:20 AM]
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Oh no....arrrgh, I didn't post my polar maths quiz up successfully!! Arrgh...I got a ungradeded for the polar complex number quiz cause I lost my wireless connection at the last minute....What shld I do now? I dun wanna get to be the lowest in class even for maths. I dun wanna disappoint Mrs Gan!! I'll excel in maths here!! So I'll not give up!!
IWANTEDYOU @[9:22 PM]
Friday, June 09, 2006
haiz...so sian, these few days all work. Work,work,work and more work. Ppl sae that the life of a polytechnic student is much more relax and less stressful than that of a Junior College student. Hahax..I dun think so lo. The holidays I'm having isn't holiday at all, theres so muck work to be done!! Hahax..the teacher sure noes how to use our holidays to give us independent learning and projects.
Talking about teacher... My DE cum PEEE cum personal tutor Mdm Tsui called me on my handphone today... Hahs, as expacted, I'm the only one who failed the recent DE pract test, need to sae, I'm also the lowest in class...hahs, wad a joke, am I that lousy? Can't I even handle my own work and grades. I gotta be more mature!! Can't let such things happen to me anymore, can let my thoughts and feelings take away my rational thinking again. Hahax..crushing my test paper and throwing into the dustbin seems like not a good idea eh =P
IWANTEDYOU @[11:15 PM]
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Hmm...dunno why leh. Can't sleep properly. Keep waking up in the middle of night 4 times in a row. Haiz..is like ok, now I'm prepared to face the whole with a same old brand new me. But is like I still dun have the spirit to do anything.... is like very thing is so sianz to me. Like no point to do them and like I dun feel like doing things lo. Hahax..like my heart have a hole that needs to be filled in...
Today after I post the above post, she came online and I finally tok to her after waiting for 29 days, creepy horz, today is 06-06-06, satan's birthday. She told me all her thoughts and her feels and I also tell her everything.And we sort of clear out thought she still consistantly reject my offer of hanging out....sadz though. I found out that she is also a bit same like me, keep think of wad I sae on the faithful day ..8 May. The diff btw us is that I think she can control her thoughts and emotion and not let it affected her studies, and this is wad I didn't manage to do... On these days, I do not put in my best in all assignments given to me, I even let this thoughts affect me that I delibrately fail my Digital electronics test cause my mind is not wif me. I was so depress that I crush my test paper and throw it into the dustbin. I dun even have the heart to do souldering in class..I was completely eaten up ny my thoughts and depression...haiz..
I'm so pathetic horz....
IWANTEDYOU @[9:35 PM]
Monday, June 05, 2006
I have make up my mind.
I shouldn't have been so obsessed.
Hahax...it's so relieve that I finally made a true decision on my own.
An important decision to me.
Yup..I have been a fool to many ppl, hahax =P
Yeah..It's time to stand up and look into the future.
Hahax...the past had pass, wad's done is done.
If this thing made you avoid me forever, then I have no choice.
But to also put you out of my live.
Yup.. thats all, may happiness be wif you forever.
FrIeNdS fOrEvEr!!
IWANTEDYOU @[2:03 PM]
Haiz..today is the most difficult night for me. I can't sleep, and I have a session of decision making training from Ern San and Glen. It's reli hard to make a decision.
It's so hard, the decision you make affects the future and maybe will bring misery to you forever....The decision to safe you love or your dad if you can onli safe one, it's so hard. I'll choose to die wif my love and safe dad but I can't. It's like stuck in the middle, the feeling is so helpless. It's sux to have the feeling of being helpless!!
IWANTEDYOU @[2:26 AM]
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Yesterday after maths, I go to do Idea project wif nigel,gordon,faz and gabriel. Wa!! Sian lo....have to re-write cause there's no connection in the wireless. So when glen they all come meet us,all move to the library to complete while vance and faz do their CRS article. After this, me, san, glen, vance, zhi hao and faz when to block T19(Sku of Business)to look for Ms susan lee but she not in so we put in her letter box.After that we went to the Mrt station and stephanie meet up wif us. The 7 of us when Orchard Cinne to watch X-men III. Wa..sian lo, my favourite character cyclops come up 15min then die liao..killed by jean.. And jean look like auntie lo..lolx!! But the movie is nice la..hahax!! After movie everyone all shouted cold sia..lolx. Then zhi hao leave us and we went to around orchard cause got Singapore Great Sale..hahax!! We walk for a long time then steph leaves us....the rest 5 of us walk around to wisma and take quite some pics..hahax!! That's fun worz..then we go home =) But sad lo....dear dear today sad and meiqing...haiz,she took away all her pics on friendster le..haiz....
IWANTEDYOU @[1:00 AM]